Make cupcakes not war. :)

So.. I woke up late again. Actually, I was feeling a little sick last night. After going to that celebration with my relatives., I've felt really dizzy.. Yea. So I went home. I got a rie from a cousin's friend who kind of likes me but he's kind of a maniac. Ugghh.. Well, I wen't home. Too bored to be in the computer and went to bed. But I still want to talk to Allen that time. He's being a dork and wants me to go to sleep so I did. I woke up at 11:30am today, stayed in bed for a while. And then hung out again here in the pc. Then in the mid-afternoon, my stepmom asked me to get dressed and come with her to PC Richards. Although I didn't want to (I have plans, ya know.) So yea.. I was enjoying reading manga and then I went out. So we went there, checking out the gadgets and stuff.. and the yea. she was like eager to buy three of those cameras. but they denied her card for some reason that it has been inactive for a long time. we got back home for her another application but they denied it again when we went back there cuz they said her credibility was messed up. thanks to my stupid asshole dad who messed it up. now i was supposed to buy my own laptop but i haven't. urrrgggghhhh... they were like fighting again. and then i was like eating in boston market where the mashed potatoes make me fart. *sighs--- now i'm back here i talked to some dorky guys on espin.com. both of them named Matt. And Allen was not able to talk to me for long cuz he said he's going to taco bell. At this moment, I'm still not happy. I'm still pretending a lot of times, I'm still promising I can give this.. I can do that.. I'm still telling and keep saying lies.. I've been screwing up myslef a lot. I dunno how to start helping myself but  it's just that I don't feel the way I should have to be. Like a normal 17 year old. A teenager. People say I'm mature.. Some say I'm so immature. It's so complicated. Have I even try to know my true self? Ughhh.. These are thoughts I should've have been revealing.. I'm goin' to sleep. Night.