Make cupcakes not war. :)

Matte Whitehorne is the best We'll make out and do the rest He's my best New Year's gift So you dummies I dont give a shit He pinches my butt I smell his hair We kiss in the subway You people dont care! Hell we are meant to be Matte Whitehorne is the guy for me! Weeeee! :]

So.. I woke up late again. Actually, I was feeling a little sick last night. After going to that celebration with my relatives., I've felt really dizzy.. Yea. So I went home. I got a rie from a cousin's friend who kind of likes me but he's kind of a maniac. Ugghh.. Well, I wen't home. Too bored to be in the computer and went to bed. But I still want to talk to Allen that time. He's being a dork and wants me to go to sleep so I did. I woke up at 11:30am today, stayed in bed for a while. And then hung out again here in the pc. Then in the mid-afternoon, my stepmom asked me to get dressed and come with her to PC Richards. Although I didn't want to (I have plans, ya know.) So yea.. I was enjoying reading manga and then I went out. So we went there, checking out the gadgets and stuff.. and the yea. she was like eager to buy three of those cameras. but they denied her card for some reason that it has been inactive for a long time. we got back home for her another application but they denied it again when we went back there cuz they said her credibility was messed up. thanks to my stupid asshole dad who messed it up. now i was supposed to buy my own laptop but i haven't. urrrgggghhhh... they were like fighting again. and then i was like eating in boston market where the mashed potatoes make me fart. *sighs--- now i'm back here i talked to some dorky guys on espin.com. both of them named Matt. And Allen was not able to talk to me for long cuz he said he's going to taco bell. At this moment, I'm still not happy. I'm still pretending a lot of times, I'm still promising I can give this.. I can do that.. I'm still telling and keep saying lies.. I've been screwing up myslef a lot. I dunno how to start helping myself but  it's just that I don't feel the way I should have to be. Like a normal 17 year old. A teenager. People say I'm mature.. Some say I'm so immature. It's so complicated. Have I even try to know my true self? Ughhh.. These are thoughts I should've have been revealing.. I'm goin' to sleep. Night.

Talking to my love, Allen, for like 2 hours now. He's still lives in West Virginia and may come here next summer. I wanna give him a hug so tight that he'll never wanted to take off my arms from him. His voice is so awesome who he scream when he got bit or hurt by something.. I have no much to say.. Especially this thanksgiving day. My left elbow is really hurting, my stomach i grumbling and I'm too lazy to get up. Allen is watching a movie right now. A pretty darn death scary movie with bloods and shit. He's heartless so he broke my heart cuz he doesn't know if he feel anything. He is just hoping his schoolmates will die, his friends will die, his mom will die, and mike will die too. =/ im bored.. lazy.. really bored. ugghh...

I was at work. Doing nothing. So I decided to pimp out my page. :) Sorry for the crazy behavior of those pictures. Haha. This is beginning were I will tell my thoughts and share it to everyone who reads it. ^^ As what it says, it's a journal. So I'll try to keep myself up-to-date in here. (/random) The music background is the Hey Monday!'s album. I've been loving the activity of making webpages. If you want me to pimp out or make your myspace or any blog site you are into, I could decorate it for you. :D Is it right? Decorate? Haha. Whatever.. These are just some of my thoughts that would really make no sense. You are welcome to read and check out everything. Thanks! ---pebblesxcore <3

The Night at The Roseland Ballroom.It was Nov. 19, 2008. It was the Bill and Trav's
Bogus Tour. The second concert I attended since I've been here. :) So
as I was saying, in regards to that concert, being a newbie in this
country was so cool. Experiencing the enjoyment of the crowd as I was
getting along with them was a delightful excitement that I had. It was
an awesome feeling that I jumped and scream out there and seen myself
singing along with those great bands. And so, after the event I took
pictures with some members of the band Hey Monday! and Carolina Liar.
But then, I had an unforgettable moment with a stranger or I don't know
if he is in band or what. We had a picture together and he kissed me on
my cheek. (Well, I asked him cause he can't sign my shirt cause he
didn't had a sharpie with him) Hahaha. I was crazy enough to ask that
when he was with his girlfriend and I still can't confirm if he is in a
band. I have the picture with him and if anyone could help me know who
is that guy, then i would be really glad to thank you. :) I'll be
waiting for your replies. Thanks. ^^

It was Nov. 19, 2008. It was the Bill and Trav's Bogus Tour. The second concert I attended since I've been here. :) So as I was saying, in regards to that concert, being a newbie in this country was so cool. Experiencing the enjoyment of the crowd as I was getting along with them was a delightful excitement that I had. It was an awesome feeling that I jumped and scream out there and seen myself singing along with those great bands. And so, after the event I took pictures with some members of the band Hey Monday! and Carolina Liar. But then, I had an unforgettable moment with a stranger or I don't know if he is in band or what. We had a picture together and he kissed me on my cheek. (Well, I asked him cause he can't sign my shirt cause he didn't had a sharpie with him) Hahaha. I was crazy enough to ask that when he was with his girlfriend and I still can't confirm if he is in a band. I have the picture with him and if anyone could help me know who is that guy, then i would be really glad to thank you. :) I'll be waiting for your replies. Thanks. ^^